deaven

its funny, reading back on these past entries.
they seem like yesterday to me.
even the ones dating back to last october.
god, this years gone by quickly.

needless to say,
i've realized that no matter how much emotional, physical, or mental problems i go through, in the end, everything will be ok.
as i went through reading my past entries all i could do was laugh.
not at how pathetic or dependant i was, or how random i was, haha,
but because with every event that happened in my life, i found some way or another to turn it into a HUGE deal, when in reality it was nothing.
& means nothing to me now.

thats what everyone should remember.
even if it seems like the worst thing everr has happened to you;
a week, month, or year from now
i can almost garentee that you'll either forget about it or move on with it & it'll barely effect your life at all.

no matter what happens
life goes on, people move on, things change.
& if you decide to hate life for those reasons than im sorry,
but i think it's something everyone needs to accept.

maybe this whole live journal thing wasn't such a bad idea after all.
hope everyones doing well<3

so right now im gonna say fuck it
& not think about whats on my mind
& im not going to talk about it

all im going to say
is that this weekend is going to be fucking amazing
and i hope with everything that i have
that i wont even be able to remember it

consistant PAR-TAY
i think sooo :D

mm so today
was amazing.
end of story.

mm so thursday i finished getting my hurr did
& i freaking love it :]
& i finally got to hangout with jennifer
she ended up not working for MAC anymore
just because she made a new make up line
which is like amazing
so shes been doing that along with her own shit
i then headed over to trinity & got my fitting done
& ended up knowing basically everyone in the store from a long time ago
& the 2 girls that own the place
holy fuck
after knowing them for 5 min i fell in love with them
"what can i get fo 10 dolla
anyting you wan'
ahh haha crazy ass song btw
anyways. i ended up finding a dress
that fit my like it was made for my body.
it was drop dead gorgeous
and i get to wear it along with 3 other dresses
the clothes are seriously to die for
so i was only supposed to be there for an hour
ended up staying for 4
haha
& on friday
i just chilled went to school
tanned exc..
why the fuck im a writing this
most likely because im bored right?
maybe.

anyways. today was insane.
just like fucking insane
the show went well
except for the little sidekick i had following me everywhere
that i fucking hate
like i seriously couldnt stand her from the day we met
stupid whore
anyways
ahh so im addicted to sushi now
like no other
& ALOT is happening right now
like too much to even consider typing
its quite intense
but everything is falling into place
more than anyone could ever understand
things have never been going better for me
hopefully itll continue this way for a while
tomorrow is another show
& i get to keep the clothes i wear
which is like amazing
downside. i have to wake up in 5 hours.
& i still have to shower
& talk to my babee
mm i hope he's still awake :]
<3333

why does it seem like everytime i fall
everyones either busy or out of reach
to help pick me back up?

so i went to the docotrs today
& it pretty much sucked
things tend to be only getting worse
i have to get my camera fixed
it seriously blows not having one
oh & im never tasting pie again
today wasnt very exciting
but i guess it could be alot worse
yay 4 more minutes :]

ahh i just realized that my birthdays in 21 dayyss
shyt sonn :]

wow
all i have to say about this weekend is wow
kayla is like my second half i swear
*uk accent* i fuckin love her
ahh haha
so we pretty much did everything & anything we could
in order to have a good time
saterday consisted of waiting till 12 to get our stuff
but that didnt work
so we basically waited till 7 then we got home
and got dressed and went out on ventura
we finally met up with "cc"
hahah and he brought his friend
& kayla almost freaked out & had a hernia when she saw someone famous
oh oh and the evelator became our best friend
for many reasons which i probably shouldnt name
we then came homme & i cant seem to remember what we did
then on sunday we went to church :D
oh what fun
& chris went into great conversation about kayla having more disorders
god fuck him
mm and after that we came home
and i cant seem to remeber what we did after that
im thinking we went out oh oh
wait i remember the end of the night
mmm soo we decided at like 11 to go down to hollywood
so we got completely ready and went to the gas station
& realized that we forgot money for gas
so we came home
went upstairs got the keys
got back in the car
& realized that we locked the keys in the house
so we got the keys
& got back in the car
& decided that their were way to many signs telling us not to go
so we rented the chocolate factory wonka movie
& came home and the rest is history
i dont remember anything else we did
apparently kayla was sitting on the table and my couch was staring at her
& i fell off my chair from laughing
and stuck the chair between my legs
& started making noises since i was driving an ary boat shooting things
& then i saw a dog or something that turned into squishy
im going to so be proud of myself if that made any sense at all
so today we finally got over to melrose & shopped
& i dont really remember what else we did
she ended up staying an extra day but she left tonight
but shes coming back next weekend for suurrreee
im so unbelieavbly tired
like i dont think ive ever been this tired before
ive barely gotten any sleep this weekend
so im off to bedd

khdsg;flghj
so today pretty much owned your FACE
the only thing that sucked was that i didnt get to starbucks
till 9 30 so i didnt get to see him
which pretty much sucked
& i feel bad because im guessing that he did show up earlier & i wasnt there so he left
god damnit
hahaha
soooo ka ka ka kayla missed her 1pm train
came here at 7
and as i ran to her at the train
i fell
HA
no but seriously
so our "friend" wont have anything till 12 tomorrow
soo tonight we went by with nothing
it was quite a sad sad day for both of us
no not really
why would you believe that
mashmellow chop sewui hella
ew
ahhh tomorrow is going to be like 98743543680954865467 times better than tonight
i would go into detail about the facinating things that happened today
but to be honest i just
i just dont think your ready for this
"ahhhh shit fuck peace out
oh oh oh
& if you want to hang out with us
i have a giant penis"
:D
fucking love this girl hella
fucking a
be tomorrow already
just fucking be it
why would i be talking to him if i was mad
hmm?
please just tell me that
like seriously are you really that fucking stupid
apparently
this weekend isnt going to involve any bullshit
i swear
its going to be sooo amazing
especially when i get to hang out with my wang out
hahah

no joke.
you know you love it.

one more day
ugh that seems so far away
fuck sports
who even fucking likes sports
like seriously
writing articles about baseball shouldnt qualify as
"pe"
like shouldnt i be running or something
most likely but am i?
psh no
instead im rushing to highlight "important events" about what?
baseball?
aka the lamest sport ever
greaat now on to basketball
god i just cant take this much excitment at once
so i finally got my huur did
& i luurrrvveee it
now for the blonde :]
why am i still peeling
its been like 2 weeks
see look deaven
now your sitting here trying to distract yourself
so that you wont have to learn about sports
see see
god i so knew it
GO DO YOUR WORK